Monday, March 9, 2009

18 Years

If any of you have known me since my youth you would be just as amazed as I that I've made it this long! My parents probably thought I would die early on in life (someone tired of listening to me talk would silence me...hahaha).
But seriously, where has the time gone? I can remember moving into the Residence Inn and staying there for three months waiting for my house like it happened yesterday. I can remember the yellow bedroom with the animal wallpaper in my home in St. Louis and crying over leaving my beloved 2nd grade class as if it happened this very morning. I honestly cannot believe that I'm so old....
Saturday morning, my birthday, I awoke at around 7:45, prior to my family's "SURPRISE" awakening... As I was once again gaining consciousness I came to a strange realization. I realized that in a matter of months I will be leaving my family for good (basically). Christmas breaks and the couple of weeks that I'll be home before my mission (hopefully only a couple weeks) really do not constitute being home in my opinion. Sure I'll miss my family and the crazy chaos that is my life when I am doing things with them, but at the same time I'm so excited to leave. It'll be a good change and it'll be a great experience.
Another strange realization that I came to is that I have learned to love and embrace change. If anyone were to ask my mother what would happen when she would rearrange my pillows before bed one would wonder how I have come so far in such a short time. I constantly seek change, and lately I have embraced surprises...which still baffles my poor mother. I don't know when this change occurred but I honestly love it so much.
I have limited days left out here and I'm trying to learn to make the best of them. Making my days fun and relaxing helps them to pass much more quickly than they have been as of late (grammar?). Although all my classes are easy and I don't really get much homework, school is still the bane of my existence. I enjoy three of my six classes, and two of my six have big tests coming in about two months (AP Spanish and AP Lit exams). Argh! I just want it to end....but i know I can endure. Only 45 more days....